Poetry
I am only a fragment of the unseen
a dewy twilight dream of things to be
something dark here dreams of me
plucking broken petals off a nightmare tree
like a doll
it prays to me
Isn’t this the way love always goes?
One loves too soon and one too late
One dreams it into possibility
both grieve their life away
Our lives evolve
the play revolves
the story stays the same
Moon-drunk; I am senseless
I am only a fragment of the unseen
a dewy twilight dream of things to be
something dark here dreams of me
plucking petals off a nightmare tree
like a doll
it prays to me
then breaks the heart line to break me
Do I dare?
Do I dare?
Disturb the universe
in the midst of my despair?
love,
is fleeting always scheming
He knew I was the one
He knew I was a channel
for the forces out beyond
he lost his heart at the avenue
where life and death entwined
he lost his heart at the avenue
he also lost his mind
he didn’t want to leave just yet
he hunted something found anew
something that could bring him back:
walk a path of drifting seduction
into a world devoid of light
or
walk the path of the careful lover
a walk that transcends even time
this requires first a deep unwinding
an untethering of this reality
years later he asked me what I’d choose
I said “darling you know I’d always choose you”
in this world there are
entities that can’t quite find the light
ensnared in moonstone craving power from a woman
who parts crowds
like the sea
Babylonian Queen
with a heart of ease
with eyes shaded green
with a stone-cold gleam
the crowd of people simply just adoring me
he looked at me
with a stone-cold gleam
I knew it’d never be
He sold me under spotlights
He sold me as the world watched
He sold me to the grinning devil
He hoped it’d make it stop
Babylonian queen
archaic dream
I soundly sleep above the garden
outside there lurks a vampire
humming
luring
songs
asking me to meet at midnight
come, alone
come, alone
it sings
as I sleep soundly above the garden
come, alone
come, alone
it whispers darkly
far away my lover hears the hissing
victim of his own strange happening
lost in drifting seduction
he sends me warning dreams
beware, beware
it's a loveless kind of snare
something worse than your worst nightmare
come, alone
come, alone
a promise of things I can’t quite grasp
my love’s been gone longer than I ever knew him
Imagine us at our best
lying in the garden
under a solar eclipse
imagine the roses and hyacinths
bleeding into each other
on some strange mystical canvas
imagine every day coming home
to a wife dancing in the sunbeams
dancing in a daydream
weaving together the most beautiful life
imagine one day darkness descends
obscuring these sunbeams and daydreams
witness instead an untethering at the seams
imagine coming home and she’s not there
you ask and ask
and she’s not there
Where did I leave you behind
In the forest? night-blind and starving
I went ahead where I thought it might be safer
hurting from this primal ache you would desert me
caught up in cyclones the lost map
the bear trap
the deep ravine of ghosts gliding behind
I thought you were a child of the spring
but you are a child of winter, cold and dark
where once I lay in silver rays with
wolves to light the evening
a broken man who lost his way
became a beast who devoured life
I would have dreamt my life away
in rays of silver moon
and now I lie in dying grass
your face a fading star
Do I dare?
Do I dare?
Disturb the universe
in the midst of my despair?
In a descending pit of falling stars
a meteor arises
with an eerie streak of blood red light -
in silent whispers of silken sheets
I watch you come undone
as one who thought they’d met themselves
a soul bond with another
I watch you come undone
there I write such pretty words
that place the shadows out beyond
For just a moment
There is only us
forever
joined as one
for just a moment
there is only us
you promise pretty things
a life beyond the limits
of this
strange reality
something in me bends and breaks
I know I’m not the one
come lay with me a minute
I can’t wait to see your face
I spent the last months aching
from a desire to erase
what would it take
to be together?
I watch you come undone
I’ve seen the ghosts and
now I know
a fated love
a woman who loves the darkness in you
could never be enough
to an unraveling man who drinks the blood
of demons
bespelled by ancient witches
he whispers my name like an incantation
of a world that should have been
who could love you more than me?
Do I dare?
Do I dare?
disturb the universe
in the midst of my despair?
and I smiled through the sadness
and I knew it’d never be
even when you said “I love you”
you could never look at me
there would always be a moment
when I’d feel the weight of all these years
this game of evil cat and mouse
you hunted, drew me near
I watched you come undone
In twilight rooms and
hurt the ones you love
you wept and
blamed your broken mind
I wept and felt despair
I want to stay
I really do
but the starlight lures me in
soon I’ll just be a memory
you’ll chase in streams of sunlight
this love will linger
on and on
long after long after
I am gone
the moons will shift
seasons change
you will heal
and I’ll be gone
on starlight floating
you’ll have to wait another life
I’ve dreamt of starlight since I was young
in meadows softly sleeping
I’ve dreamt of spectral ice and fire from the sun
a battle that I lost
always gently weeping
I knew I’d never have the love I felt
reduced to blood and rot
there I learned alone undone
that love can burn can melt
can die
unheard in meadows softly sleeping
basked in deep sunlight
I have dreamt of spectral ice,
of fire from the sun.
love that burns and melts away—
you will dream of me and
I will be there in the in-between
Once
I fell from a shooting star
alienated from the true beginning
I settled in the Underworld
alienated from the true ending
see the magic in the sin
I burnt the holy offering
I burnt the holy offering
I saw the magic in the sin
I prayed to old gods
And
the new
something will emerge again
I wonder if it’s you
I didn’t fall alone
some creatures made it through the portal
of the mad scientist’s twisted equations and dark experiments
it hunts
it hunts
the desert roadways
it beckons
it beckons
the wayward travelers
it finds you through strange signals:
first begin the dreams -
rust colored sentiments of mistaken belonging
then come the screams -
black-tossed wind and radioactive lightning
it hunts
it hunts
perched in caves with smokeless campfire
it likes to pretend it is human
it beckons
it beckons
the best of us
it cannot bear to be seen for who it is
it finds you through strange signals:
nestled in sudden dark thoughts
that form quick as a desert thunderstorm
it embodies a hunger older than time
wrapped in thin skin
translucent and quivering
it feeds on kindness and desire
formed in abandoned nuclear flame
notice red
please look
the blood-red color
as it drips behind in pursuit
I weep with tears of absolution for sins
I was born into
for freedom from a mind bent on self-destruction
I weep because my heart has been asked to hide again and
I am exhausted from dodging the dirty slinking hands
that seek to pulse the remaining life out of me
taste the fear lighting up the air
and see
the soul is no longer here.
I have been killed for love of you
I have been killed for love
a ghost moon creates that luring feeling
stay through all the fleeting lust
this obsession with my dark points will be the undoing of us
the untethering of us
there’s nothing left to discuss
it’s over for us
there’s a ghost moon rising over the Mississippi River
his soul wandering lost among the vampires in the French Quarter
does every Priestess fight off the hunger of these entities?
does every wounded man become a killer?
this is almost too much power for one woman to hold
How can I carry this alone?
in the Quarter there are
vampires in the convent with a sulfuric odor
captured in the ghost moon
rising too soon
lost in the ghost moon rising
he bartered for the wrong life
came back
half a man
without a soul
too long I resisted
I missed the violence in your thoughts
drowning in darkness
captivated by the wrong intention
I know who you are now
I break the chain
Do I dare?
Do I dare?
Disturb the universe
in the midst of my despair?
are you ready to watch the light go out
from the balcony of chosen seclusion
I am a daughter of Pluto and Jupiter
I can make the lights go out
I felt the dream slip through my fingers
as the years went tumbling by
I felt the love disintegrate
when I looked into your eyes.
